I also get asked quite frequently, how I am doing? Honestly? I don't know. And people telling me that I need to take care of myself. I was talking to my husband about it practically burst into tears because I told him I just didn't know how to. Life as I know it is in a complete whirlwind and I am hanging on by just a thread...but hanging on. He gave me some advice and we are going to figure things out. Instead of being caught up in all the time consuming crap like packing up my mom's things in her place or renting it out...find people and pay them to do it for you. This will help ease the burden of the mountain of things that seem so hard to tackle. Cause it's just too much for one person to handle.
As for me, I have been talking to a couple caregivers who've been through this before.One of them made me think about things a different way when she said that the reality of it all is that I can't take care of myself because the fact of the matter is my focus is now on mom. The whole aspect of "taking care of yourself" just gets defined a different way from what it was before this all began. It's the simple basic things now that might not mean much to people...taking 5 minutes longer to enjoy that warm shower, allowing yourself to sleep in for a day, going and treating yourself to coffee or dessert etc. Though these things will not significantly impact your life, they are things to find you again and keep holding onto your sanity. Because if I crash, I am useless to my mom.
So today, as busy as I was, I took a lunch break just by myself and enjoyed something I loved and haven't had in over 6 months.
|Bowl o yummy pho!|